Dear Mum,
Today I feel a lot better. I feel stronger and more at peace. I still have the pain but it is sleeping; although it is sleeping in a very delicate place. I feel I am on my way to healing and I must not give in to this ridiculous make circle of time wasting, short cuts to self confidence and filling time when I am bored.
Today I am stronger.
Tomorrow I will be stronger.
You did not raise a weak girl. I am a woman now and I am strong like you. I know you dealt with a lot of stress which caused you much pain and I am not about to make you feel like it was all for nothing. You have taught me how to deal with pain and stress. You have taught me how to be strong and what an insult I would put upon you if I could not be strong. You are an excellent teacher, you were an amazing friend, you were the best mother I could have ever asked for and your memory lives on with me. I aim strong because you taught me to be. I will never let you down by giving into depression. I will never hurt myself. I will always be your daughter and you will always be my mother.
I love you so much and without you, I am very lost. I have no road to follow so I have begun to envision a path I should follow. It is a straight road, a good road, a road of truth and strength which I will follow because I know this is the only way for me to get to you. Some day I will take you in my arms and squeeze you and kiss your rosy cheeks and mess up your already crazy, curly hair. You are my everything.
I am very sorry if I have let you down by making weak choices in the last year. I am sorry for being weak. I know you wanted to be here to correct me but I have learnt a lot about other people and a lot about myself.
My heart is with you. I wish I could just lay on your lap and watch a movie with you.
I love you more than ever and miss you dearly xxxxx
Today I feel a lot better. I feel stronger and more at peace. I still have the pain but it is sleeping; although it is sleeping in a very delicate place. I feel I am on my way to healing and I must not give in to this ridiculous make circle of time wasting, short cuts to self confidence and filling time when I am bored.
Today I am stronger.
Tomorrow I will be stronger.
You did not raise a weak girl. I am a woman now and I am strong like you. I know you dealt with a lot of stress which caused you much pain and I am not about to make you feel like it was all for nothing. You have taught me how to deal with pain and stress. You have taught me how to be strong and what an insult I would put upon you if I could not be strong. You are an excellent teacher, you were an amazing friend, you were the best mother I could have ever asked for and your memory lives on with me. I aim strong because you taught me to be. I will never let you down by giving into depression. I will never hurt myself. I will always be your daughter and you will always be my mother.
I love you so much and without you, I am very lost. I have no road to follow so I have begun to envision a path I should follow. It is a straight road, a good road, a road of truth and strength which I will follow because I know this is the only way for me to get to you. Some day I will take you in my arms and squeeze you and kiss your rosy cheeks and mess up your already crazy, curly hair. You are my everything.
I am very sorry if I have let you down by making weak choices in the last year. I am sorry for being weak. I know you wanted to be here to correct me but I have learnt a lot about other people and a lot about myself.
My heart is with you. I wish I could just lay on your lap and watch a movie with you.
I love you more than ever and miss you dearly xxxxx
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